Feeling like I am now Lighting up the hall I was used to standing in the shadow of a damaged heart Learning all I know now Losing all I did I never used to feel like I'd be standing so far ahead
Sometimes it feels what I recovered you lost Sending your peaceful loss to me
I'm not their hero But that doesn't mean that I wasn't brave I never walked the party line Doesn't mean that I was never afraid I'm not your hero But that doesn't mean we're not one in the same
I am not a pretty girl that is not what I do I ain't no damsel in distress and I don't need to be rescued so put me down punk maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere
I am not an angry girl but it seems like I've got everyone fooled every time I say something they find hard to hear they chalk it up to my anger and never to their own fear and imagine you're a girl just trying to finally come clean knowing full well they'd prefer you were dirty and smiling
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Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) > Florence and the Machine
The looking glass, so shiny and new How quickly the glamour fades I start spinning, slipping out of time Was that the wrong pill to take? (Raise it up)
You made a deal, and now it seems you have to offer up But will it ever be enough? (Raise it up, raise it up) It's not enough (Raise it up, raise it up)
Here I am, a rabbit hearted girl Frozen in the headlights It seems I've made the final sacrifice
You put up your defenses when you leave You leave because you're certain Of who you want to be
You're putting up your armor when you leave You leave because you're certain Of who you want to be
Icarus is flying too close to the sun Icarus's life, it has only just begun This is how it feels to take a fall Icarus is flying towards an early grave
And in my mind In the faraway here and now I've become in control somehow And I never lose my wallet Because I will be the picture of of discipline Never fucking up anything And I'll be a good defensive driver And it's funny how I imagined That I would be that person now But it does not seem to have happened Maybe I've just forgotten how to see That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be
I have everything to lose By not getting up to fight I might get used to giving up So I am showing up tonight I am my own enemy The battle fought within my mind If I can overcome step one I can face the 99
You've been my soulmate and mentor I remembered you the moment I met you With you I knew god's face was handsome With you I suffered an expansion
This loss is numbing me It pierces my chest And I can't stop dropping everything
I thought we'd be sexy together Thought we'd be evolving together I thought we'd have children together I thought we'd be family together But I was sadly mistaken
But you'll fight and you'll make it through You'll fake it if you have to And you'll show up for work with a smile And you'll be be better you'll be smarter More grown up and a better daughter Or son and a real good friend And you'll be awake and you'll be alert You'll be positive though it hurts And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends And you'll be a real good listener You'll be honest you'll be brave You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful You'll be happy
Me? Well, I'm well. Well, I mean I'm in hell. Well, I still have my health (At least that's what they tell me) If wellness is this, what in hell's name is sickness? But business is business!
And business Runs in the family, we tend to bruise easily Bad in the blood, I'm telling you 'cause I just want you to know me Know me and my family We're wonderful folks but Don't get too close to me 'Cause you might knock me up
Life can be so cruel Don't it astound you? So when nothing seems too certain or safe Let it burn through you You can keep it pure on the inside And you know what you believe to be right So you're not gonna crack No you're never gonna crack
Run my baby run my baby run Run from the noise of the street and the loaded gun Too late for solutions to solve in the setting sun So run my baby run my baby run
Find out who you are before you regret it Because life is so short, there's no time to waste it
And I am flawed But I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear Like the diamond in your ring Cut to mirror your intentions Oversized and overwhelmed The shine of which has caught my eye And rendered me so isolated, so motivated I am certain now that
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ? Forgetting you or forgetting myself... Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter, I would've naturally loved the former.
For ignoring you: my highest voices. For smiling when my strife was all too obvious. For being so disassociated from my body, And for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology? No one's been crueler than I've been to me.
I was locked into being my mother's daughter I was just eating bread and water thinking nothing ever changes and I was shocked to see the mistakes of each generation will just fade like a radio station if you drive out of range
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I'm Not Your Hero > Tegan and Sara
Feeling like I am now
Lighting up the hall
I was used to standing in the shadow of a damaged heart
Learning all I know now
Losing all I did
I never used to feel like I'd be standing so far ahead
Sometimes it feels what I recovered you lost
Sending your peaceful loss to me
I'm not their hero
But that doesn't mean that I wasn't brave
I never walked the party line
Doesn't mean that I was never afraid
I'm not your hero
But that doesn't mean we're not one in the same
Not A Pretty Girl > Ani Difranco
I am not a pretty girl
that is not what I do
I ain't no damsel in distress
and I don't need to be rescued
so put me down punk
maybe you'd prefer a maiden fair
isn't there a kitten stuck up a tree somewhere
I am not an angry girl
but it seems like I've got everyone fooled
every time I say something they find hard to hear
they chalk it up to my anger
and never to their own fear
and imagine you're a girl
just trying to finally come clean
knowing full well they'd prefer you
were dirty and smiling
Rabbit Heart (Raise It Up) > Florence and the Machine
The looking glass, so shiny and new
How quickly the glamour fades
I start spinning, slipping out of time
Was that the wrong pill to take? (Raise it up)
You made a deal, and now it seems you have to offer up
But will it ever be enough? (Raise it up, raise it up)
It's not enough (Raise it up, raise it up)
Here I am, a rabbit hearted girl
Frozen in the headlights
It seems I've made the final sacrifice
Icarus > Bastille
You put up your defenses when you leave
You leave because you're certain
Of who you want to be
You're putting up your armor when you leave
You leave because you're certain
Of who you want to be
Icarus is flying too close to the sun
Icarus's life, it has only just begun
This is how it feels to take a fall
Icarus is flying towards an early grave
In My Mind > Amanda Palmer
And in my mind
In the faraway here and now
I've become in control somehow
And I never lose my wallet
Because I will be the picture of of discipline
Never fucking up anything
And I'll be a good defensive driver
And it's funny how I imagined
That I would be that person now
But it does not seem to have happened
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be
One More > Superchick
I have everything to lose
By not getting up to fight
I might get used to giving up
So I am showing up tonight
I am my own enemy
The battle fought within my mind
If I can overcome step one
I can face the 99
Simple Together > Alanis Morissette
You've been my soulmate and mentor
I remembered you the moment I met you
With you I knew god's face was handsome
With you I suffered an expansion
This loss is numbing me
It pierces my chest
And I can't stop dropping everything
I thought we'd be sexy together
Thought we'd be evolving together
I thought we'd have children together
I thought we'd be family together
But I was sadly mistaken
Consequence> The Notwist
You're the color
You're the movement and the spin
(never)
Could it stay with me the whole day long
Fail with consequence
Lose with eloquence
And smile
You're not in this movie
You're not in this song
(never)
Leave me paralyzed, love
Leave me hypnotized, love
Leave me paralyzed, love
Leave me hypnotized, love..
A Better Son/Daughter > Rilo Kiley
But you'll fight and you'll make it through
You'll fake it if you have to
And you'll show up for work with a smile
And you'll be be better you'll be smarter
More grown up and a better daughter
Or son and a real good friend
And you'll be awake and you'll be alert
You'll be positive though it hurts
And you'll laugh and embrace all your friends
And you'll be a real good listener
You'll be honest you'll be brave
You'll be handsome you'll be beautiful
You'll be happy
Runs in the Family > Amanda Palmer
Me?
Well, I'm well.
Well, I mean I'm in hell.
Well, I still have my health
(At least that's what they tell me)
If wellness is this, what in hell's name is sickness?
But business is business!
And business
Runs in the family, we tend to bruise easily
Bad in the blood, I'm telling you 'cause
I just want you to know me
Know me and my family
We're wonderful folks but
Don't get too close to me
'Cause you might knock me up
Angry > Matchbox 20
I'm not angry it's never been enough
It gets inside and it tears you up
I'm not angry but I've never been above it
You see through me don't you
And it's good that I'm not angry
Well I need to get over
I'm not angry
It's dragging me under
I'm not angry
And it's good that I'm not angry
Well I need to get over
I'm not angry, anymore
Soldier Girl > Polyphonic Spree
I found my Soldier Girl
She's so far away (so far away)
She makes my head spin around (spin around)
Run, Baby, Run > Garbage
Life can be so cruel
Don't it astound you?
So when nothing seems too certain or safe
Let it burn through you
You can keep it pure on the inside
And you know what you believe to be right
So you're not gonna crack
No you're never gonna crack
Run my baby run my baby run
Run from the noise of the street and the loaded gun
Too late for solutions to solve in the setting sun
So run my baby run my baby run
Find out who you are before you regret it
Because life is so short, there's no time to waste it
Vindicated > Dashboard Confessional
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that
Take To The Sky > Tori Amos
My heart is like the ocean
It gets in the way
So close to touching freedom
Then I hear the guards call my name
But my priest says
You ain't taking no souls
My father says
You ain't making any money
My doctor says
You just took it to the limit
And here I stand
With this sword in my hand
You can say it one more time
What you don't like
Let me hear it one more time then
Have a seat while I take to the sky
Sorry to Myself > Alanis Morissette
Well, I wonder which crime is the biggest ?
Forgetting you or forgetting myself...
Had I heeded the wisdom of the latter,
I would've naturally loved the former.
For ignoring you: my highest voices.
For smiling when my strife was all too obvious.
For being so disassociated from my body,
And for not letting go when it would've been the kindest thing.
To whom do I owe the biggest apology?
No one's been crueler than I've been to me.
Out of Range > Ani Difranco
I was locked
into being my mother's daughter
I was just eating bread and water
thinking
nothing ever changes
and I was shocked
to see the mistakes of each generation
will just fade like a radio station
if you drive out of range
Monster Hospital > Metric
I fought the war but the war won't stop for the love of god.
I fought the war but the war won